My Writing Debate: For me or for publication

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This might be kind of like a manifesto (the first of many, I’m sure).

I have always stretched myself thin. In high school I juggled everything: band (wind ensemble, jazz, marching, and pep), sports (soccer and track), drama club, student council, honor society, music honor society, tutoring, a part-time job, and my school work. College was even worse, adding on three more part-time jobs, a 100% full course load, and a ton of extra curriculars (working on friends’ film sets, writing for campus publications, running writing groups, etc). It hurt me then, dividing my attention and diluting my work. Be involved, sure! But maybe not to the point of nervous break downs and anxiety attacks.

I’m much less busy these days, which upsets me. In a positive light, I’d like to be more involved in community activities, maybe explore some new hobbies (I’m getting really into baking and knitting, at least), and just enrich my life more outside of work. But this is also extending to my writing. I feel like need to write everything and be everywhere. It’s splitting me in all different directions and causing some serious confusion. That’s the negative.

My writing spans multiple media. I write journalistic pieces, blogs, scripts, business documents, essays, and prose. I have the technical ability to write all of them, but if I continue to focus on each I’ll never master any. So a frustrating battle has started to rage inside of me: do I try to get more work published and truly attempt a life as a freelancer (which is nearly impossible today)? Or should I leave that behind and devote all my time to fiction? It’s difficult to suppress my overachiever personality.

I have also always loved getting my work out there and posting articles I’d written to Facebook to prove to people that I was relevant and, in fact, a writer. But in order to commit to a life of self-affirmation via Facebook, you have to leave everything else behind and become a monster. Sounds tiring.

But there’s more to this…

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Upfronts and Looking Forward to the Fall

five_networksOk guys…this week was Upfronts in New York, so it’s time to talk some TV. All the networks have decided on their new pilots, canceled shows that weren’t pulling in the viewers, and released their fall schedules. This is a summary of my thoughts, including full schedules, what I’m mad about, and what I’m excited for. I’m not getting into mid-season stuff, but I will say I’ve read the pilot for The 100 (The CW), and it’s garbage. I’ve also seen the pilot for Killer Women (ABC), and it too is garbage.

Let me begin with expressing my disappointment about two pilots in particular that weren’t picked up: BLINK and Mulaney.

saraff__130403164548-200x266I’m not-so-secretly stalking BLINK creator Vera Herbert. Her twitter is hilarious. She’s like a year or two younger than me, wrote an adorable short in college called ZomRomCom: The Musical, which is a musical about a scientist falling in love with a zombie (yes I dug through the internet and read it), and then worked as an assistant on Awkward., which is one of the best shows ever. She’s like 24 and not only was her BLINK pilot ordered by the CW, but she had a feature script put on the blacklist. It’s now being produced. BLINK is about a man who goes into a coma but can hear everything that’s going on around him, and his daughter struggling with it. It’s a darker family dramedy and seemed like it had a lot of buzz. Unfortunately, the CW passed. I’d love to see the pilot though, if anyone like has it or anything.

Mulaney was the multi-cam semi-biographical comedy from SNL writer John Mulaney. I LOVE Mulaney’s stand-up and his work on SNL, as well as The Kroll Show. This pilot also starred Nasim Pedrad, Martin Short (!!!!), Elliot Gould, and had a cameo from Jimmy Fallon. I guess we’ll never know how genius it could’ve been. I’m voting for Mulaney as the next Weekend Update Anchor!

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Here’s a great link to 10 pilots that sounded amazing and were passed over.

Many good shows were killed over the course of the year. Allow me to list the ones I’m most upset over:

  • Happy Endings
  • The Mob Doctor
  • 666 Park Avenue
  • Ben & Kate
  • Don’t Trust  the B—- in Apt. 23
  • Deception
  • Up All Night (although it became serious garbage so maybe I’m not that sad)

Also, just for good measure, I will NEVER get over The Secret Circle‘s cancellation last year. Ever. But hopefully this summer’s Under the Dome will quench my thirst for Britt Robertson (SOSOSOEXCITED!!).

Now on to what’s happening in the fall:

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10 Reasons I Can’t Watch Movies With You: All I Want For Christmas

I just can’t watch movies with anyone but my family. And by watch I mean fully engross ourselves.

My family is very close. We get along really well and have a strong friend vibe that connects us. I never understood families with rigid hierarchies or distant relationships. My Mom, Dad, Sister and Brother are all my closest friends and know me better than anyone. Yes, sure, I lived in a house with them for 18 years. And yeah, I guess I sprang from my Mother’s loins and instantly had my Dad’s disposition, but so did a lot of people who hate their parents.

This great relationship is definitely due to generally possessing similar personalities, as well as how our parents raised us, but in that is our love of film and television. My family lives through the TV screen. We go to the movies religiously. We talk to each other through references. By experiencing and connecting to films together, we end up experiencing and connecting with each other. It is not uncommon for us to celebrate the Holidays by going to see the new big budget release of the year (anyone want to see Les Mis on Christmas??).

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